12/22/2011

So today i was supposed to go out and do some last minute Christmas shopping, but of course my mom suddenly forgot and when i brought it up. She had an attitude with me and she told me that i wasn't getting that much money for Christmas so i had to think and choose wisely, on how much i was going to spend. Well once we had the money issue solved my mother told me that we were going to send my friend her Christmas present to her home, but in the back of my mine, i know for a fact that when i bring it up again, she is going to make it into a big fuss. My mother had an attitude with me today because i burnt the pork chops. I didn't know that i had to cook tonight let alone make dinner. Now i must admit that i was being lazy, but it still shouldn't be any reason for my mother to fuss me out over it, while making me feel like I'm worth less. Sometimes i look back into my child hood and i just wonder. "How was i able to make it out OK with a dysfunctional family." My mother sometimes act like she don't care and it's like she is controlling my life (literally) i have no say so on what i can and can't do. That's probably one of the main reasons why i am somewhat non sociable. And yet other time i thank god for my family because with out them i don't know were i would be now.