What to do? day 55 11/2/2011

The more i think about my life the more i get depressed because i had so many opportunities to get things done. But i chose to wait at the last minute. This college stuff is so depressing and very much stressful. When my older cousin Charmaine applied to college, she made it seem so easy and fun, but now that i am in her shoes i somewhat want to ask her, what is so fun about this process. I have yet to hit the submit button for my applications because i am too nervous. I don't want to go to community college, i actually want to go to a university and or some college other than that. I really wan to live that college life without worries of paying off student loans. I just hope and pray that god gives me the strength to carry on with the  college application process. I guess i just need to let go and let god.